My First Insane Rant

Ah.. where there is a will there is a way! There just has to be a fucking reason for living. It has to do with coefficients and formulas and other crazy values which reflect upon us. It has to do with the rants and the raves that we can create. It has to bring a statistic to the number of people that we have to like . the groups we have to form and the people that are in our circle. Fuck that circle fuck people and everything that they stand for. People don’t give a shit. They will look you in the eye and tell you that you mean something to them. When in reality they are talking shit behind your back. I see it on a daily basis the people saying what’s up to your face and the second you round the corner they are like oh that guys Is just an asshole. Fuck you you fucking fuck. That is the way to best say it. I like the loner role. Somebody has to play it. Somebody has to be the dickhead that no one wants around. Its just no fun if everyone conformed to the what society deems is a perfect mold. You have to break the mold. All those fuck sticks that are surrounding you. Laughing the laugh and pretending to be on your side. Well fuck them too.. I can’t stand it anymore. The bullshit the innocence is lost upon us. There are times and places where it is acceptable and when it completely is a reason to beat some one across the head with a two by four or a bag of nickels. Yes a bag of nickels I must be missing out on the feeling of trashing somebodys head against the pavement. I can just imagine a few names that come to mind. A few people that should be wiped out. I can’t stand it anymore. Not even typing this stupid fucking paragraph will bring me to sanity. What do I need? What do I crave.. I know what it is.. its fucking pussy I want. I want to lick a pussy. I want to smell it and feel it get wet at my touch. I want to feel the warmth that eminates from that hole. I want to be inside of it and feel what it does to my body. I need the touch of a women. I need a fucking plan now. I need to do something to get that evil dick away from my mind. Its been too fucking long. Its been over a year since I had any. I am a fucking loser. I big fucking loser and there is no denying it. I have no life. I play with my cars. But the one thing I want to play with is totally out of my grasp and reach.
Oh fucking tra la la.. you are an idiot you are a perverse human being with no grip on realtiy. You have no clue. You have had your chances and you have blown them all. You are an ingrate and a moron. You deserve to be alone. You deserve the lonlieness that accompanies the wisdom of a shallow moronic idealist wuss. You are a no talent ass clown that is exactly like his father.. puts on a show and what for. So people can say what a great person he is and when in reality he is just a miserable prick. A person no one wants to deal with a person no one wants anything to do with. No one calls you no one writes to you. You have alienated all your friends and don’t deserve to be in the public. Perception is a beautiful thing. People percept you as being a moron. Oh you could write for hours couldn’t you. Keep bashing yourself and taking credit. Playing your little violin hoping for some person to take notice that you have no friends no one has called. No one has asked where is he. Its your fault you shit head. You brought this upon yourself and only you will unravel it . But you won’t you are too stubborn and don’t give a shit. You want to rot in that little hole of yours that you call a life. You are a pathetic loser. And that is all you are. You have nothing going for you and nothing ever will unless you actually do something about it. You have to make a change in yourself and make sure people realize it. Life goes on and you are nothing but a passing speck in the existence of humanity. You are nothing to this world not a blip on the radar for the timeline for humanity to even realize you exist. Life goes on and you are a piss stain on the wall of reality.. Some guy who is better then you pissed on the world and you are a by product of that! Wow does that make me feel better at all. I have completely told myself I suck and yet here I go. On and on and nothing else to show for it! Great job dick face. You got another thing coming for you.. Reality. .A friendless loser at 30 with nobody around you for the good times! My answer Fuck you.. I’m not changing!!
Piss off life. Fuck you reality. I will be happy in my little cocoon sucking on lemon bars and wishing I wasn’t an overweight fuck stick!